Saturday, February 28, 2009

Make me cry

Many of you may know that Adam and I have been trying for a couple of years to have a family. (That little statement has SO many emotional strings attached to it..... Why us? What can we do differently? Are we not good enough? etc, etc, etc. It goes on and on....:) Through these times, we have always had such wonderful support from friends and family. The heartache is still there, but a little while ago Adam and I decided we were not going to let this bring us down. We wanted to be able to look at the good things that were still going on in our lives. Through this mind set, I truly feel we have been able to find the millions of blessings that still flood into our lives every day. When you go through a trial, it is SO comforting to see the Lord give you a multitude of other blessings in a totally different way.

Through this mind set and several wonderful priesthood blessings, we have felt watched over and protected. Amidst this content though, I still felt like part of our reason for not having children, was because I would be such a horrible mother. (Don't mock the emotional trials of this! It is a valid concern..... Does He not trust me?....)

Anyway, Friday was a usual school day with the usual variety of craziness. At the end of the day, I had a student waiting around for her parents to get out of a meeting. She usually sticks around to help me file papers or sort things, so I wasn't thinking too much about what she was doing, until she turned around and looked right at me and said, "Mrs. Crawford, I wish you were my parent." I just froze. I seriously thought I was going to start sobbing like a little girl! ;) Now, I know her parents and I have met them a million times.....they always help out with parties, field trips, etc, so I know they are fabulous parents. All I could do was look at her and say, "If that were the case, I wouldn't mind it." She innocently asked me, "Why?" I had to laugh and responded, "Because you are a pretty great kid."

This simple statement shook me up so much, because if this 9 year old little girl wanted me as a parent, maybe I wouldn't do such a bad job. ;) These students see me 8 hours a day, through the grumpy days and the snowy days...... It was a huge compliment, which is yet another amazing blessing.....

Tuesday, February 24, 2009


Any holiday in our household, has to be discussed and planned out before any plans are set in motion. During our first year of marriage, we stumbled around trying to figure out what the other one had experienced the first 25 years of their lives. ;) So we decided we would set budgets and go from there. (Yes, very practical and boring, but it has helped us enjoy every holiday! No disappointment when the holiday does arrive. Especially when my crazy husband is not a fan of the Easter Bunny! Seriously, isn't that Un-American or something?;)

So, this Valentines Day weekend started out fairly regular with us getting up before work and wishing each other a "Happy Valentines Day." I went to school as happy as a kid on Christmas morning, because there was the class party that afternoon. I honestly feel like such a little kid during these school parties! How can you not feel their excitement? I always feel so special receiving those cute little valentines, and having them give me a huge hug! I truly enjoy the parties! So anyway, I was in the middle of the class party, and I heard some students start squealing. I looked up, and in walks my adorable husband with the biggest balloon I have ever seen! It seriously was hard for him to walk through the door! It was so sweet to see him walking into the classroom with the balloon and flowers, and to hear the students go wild! I turned bright red and was teased about that for 10 minutes.

The next day, we were able to have a totally chill morning followed by a nice lunch at our favorite restaurant (Iggy's is the place to go people;) We then got to go to a friend's house for a really great dinner, which ended a perfect day. I know that holidays like this stress the guys out, but how can you not like a holiday that helps you to remember how much you love each other? (Granted it's not that fun when you are alone.... ;) All in all, a wonderful and relaxing day.